To be 21

since this is probably my private space now, i can rant myself out of boredom(ssss).

what does it feels like to be 21? i remember clearly the werewolf from twilight said “heh..age is just a number baby!”*while lifting the dirtbike from the truck*. well age is not just a number to me. i have thrown myself into an environment where nearly everyone is elder than me.(so please don’t get offended is i end up calling you abang or kakak, it’s just me) all my life, i have been trying to gain their respect, to find a place for myself amongst the more experienced. my companions surely made it easy for me, i blend right in. when being desperate for acceptance, one can succumb to doing all sorts of shitty things. thank god almighty, i didn’t drift that far. my elder friends did set good models for me to follow, and i sincerely thank all my friends for that.(don’t expect me to thank them face to face lah..that’s just embarrassing.)  apart from my dirt old complexion and my humongous obese body, i think i have nurtured my mind to be like those i mixed with. the way i see it, i am technically a year older haha..